Can't See the New Carpet Under The Kids

I still can’t get over our recent blessings. That was exactly Miss Cissy’s words to me a month ago, “Darling, we just want to bless you.”

And being the hard-headed, overly independent, I can do everything my own self fool that I can be, it was hard at times to let go of control, to simply sit back and receive, yet I’m also the same person who rails against our family’s own perceived injustice and undue criticism...certainly not an uncomplicated mama.

So get a grip girl. Allow the blessings; deal with our family’s other stuff on the side.

A whirlwind of phone calls last night, not bloggable, let’s get some prayers out there going up to God.

Someone had emailed me their admiration for my discipline at getting up so early each morning. Well thanks, honey, but it isn’t discipline, not even a choice, but it is a side product of being an old bat that can’t sleep anymore so why just lay there? My motor churning, I just get up and start my day way before any alarm clock clangs.

Our internet was down this morning, I’m drinking coffee at 5 and wondering what to do. Duh girl, read a book, blog in Word and post it later.

Jack’s class is having their second grade parent breakfast this morning plus Alexander is staying with me while Deysi does a side job. That limits where I can go today.

I have my new room in the garage to clean up and work on, thoughts to mull through in my head, some plans and some dreams, more than enough to keep me busy but thankfully, due to some prayers that I greatly appreciate, I’m back on top, having slowly pulled myself out of this unaccustomed blue funk I’ve been in for too long.

The issues have not been resolved but I feel better able to face them and plow on through.

God didn’t call me to these challenges without equipping me to face them, I need to dig down deep inside of myself and remember the source of my strength. Duh.

Later...got to eat breakfast with my friend Robin, now I'm at Sarah's house who surely must soon blog about her newest recipe that I just chowed down on - blonde brownies with cranberries and dark chocolate. Probably the best I ever ate in my life.

Sarah blogged also.